Saturday, January 22, 2011
~ Happy is he who learns to bear what he cannot change. ~
~ Johann Friedrich Von Schiller
This has been quite the week for me. I have been dealing with some stressful issues in my life that have reared their ugly heads lately. This has got me to thinking about a lot of things in my life.
I am never satisfied. Sounds harsh, doesn't it? It seems like no matter where I am in life, I can never stay satisfied. Whether it be my job, my home, finances, weight issues, relationship issues, or whatever, I am always feeling as though something is lacking or these things aren't "good" enough. Friends say "just have faith". Easy to say, hard to do sometimes. I do believe in God but cannot honestly say that I have a personal relationship with Him. Oh, I've tried. But I've failed. Over and over again. I pray. Often. But I don't feel it does any good. Really.
Others say that I am lucky. I have a home, a job, a healthy family that loves me (most of the time, anyway!). And all this is true. I am very fortunate and I know that. But still, something is lacking. Why am I never satisfied???
I don't like this feeling. I don't like not being satisfied. I feel guilty. I feel overwhelmed. I feel depressed. I feel unworthy. I feel sad.
Does anyone else feel this way? If so, what do you do to fix it?
Until next time. . .