Sunday, May 16, 2010

It is what it is. . .

Hi all. It's been a while since I've posted. Life has just kicked my butt these past few weeks. I have not felt the least bit creative, work is driving me crazy, my house is a mess and I have absolutely no energy or desire to clean it, our finances are in the toilet right now, and I'm extremely grouchy, sad, overwhelmed, and fighting with the hubby and the kid and whoever else dares to speak to me! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????? Does anyone else ever feel like this or am I really just going insane? I surely hope this feeling doesn't linger. I don't like it!

The kid went to his first prom last night. Since his accident in March, he hasn't been able to drive since we only have one vehicle that he could drive and I can't afford to put him on the insurance. So I was driving him to his date's house where they were going to be picked up by some of their friends, and we got into a huge argument. My heart is broken because I feel like I ruined his special night by fighting with him. I didn't even get to take any pics of him with his date due to the fighting. What the heck is wrong with me?? I feel like the world's worst mom. Sometimes I think I should have never had the opportunity to be a mom because I have not done a very good job so far at it. Bless his heart, his deadbeat dad left me when I was pregnant with him and has never been a part of his life, has never once in 17 years sent a birthday card, Christmas gift, or even called him just to talk. He's only seen his dad one time in his life and he was only a month old then so, of course, he doesn't remember anything about him. So between not having a dad and having a screwed up mom, it's a wonder he's turned out as good as he has. I did take a couple of pics of him here at the house before we starting fighting. Here's my favorite:

The hubby and I are fussing over some financial issues right now and that is driving me crazy too. Sometimes I just get so tired of struggling with everything! Oh well, it is what it is and I guess this too shall pass.

Well, that's it for now. I'm sorry to be such a downer but sometimes you just gotta get stuff off your chest. I'm going to try to do a little crafting today if I can force myself to get up off this couch! Maybe it will help me feel better.

Until next time. . .



  1. Your son looks great in his picture. And I bet you probably feel worse about the evening than he does. To me, it sounds like you're under alot of stress and not taking time for yourself. Actually, what you're saying is what I've been saying about myself all year. Take care of yourself - you don't want your health to start suffering.

    Praying for peace for you,

  2. I will pray for you Donna. Nothing is wrong with you. Money problems are plaguing just about everyone right now. Everyone goes through trials like this. Lay your troubles at the feet of Jesus He will see you through this difficult time. Your son looks so nice in his tux. I am sure he had a great time. Blessings, Loretta

  3. I'm sorry to hear that you are stressing right now... you have a lot on your plate! Try to calm down... try to look for the solution even if there doesn't seem to be one....

    Your son looks soooooo HANDSOME! He also looks very HAPPY... so dont let arguing bother you.... you wouldnt be a normal family if you didnt argue!!

    God Bless and I hope things are better soon....

  4. (((BIG HUGS))) to you Donna, and you ARE NOT a terrible mother, you are just going through a stressful time as we all do on occasion. I have fought with my son so many times in the past year I can't even count them, but I hear from others that it is normal, the later teen years are trying for both the kids and the parents, so many struggles for freedom on their part, and struggles for keeping them safe on ours, please don't beat yourself up over it sweetie, these days will pass. He looks so handsome in his tux, my son went to prom last night too, and I had to try to *bribe* him to smile for the pictures:( Hang in there sweetie, better days WILL COME!

  5. Oh Donna... *big hugs* I am so sorry about the fighting with your son. Its as Loretta says, money problems are hitting everyone. DH and I lost our home a year ago in April and thought we were on track but thinks still are rough. Some days its hard for me to keep the faith. I am here and on Prim Pals if you ever need a shoulder. I know if it weren't for some of my online friends, I would go nuts. *saying a little prayer for you*


  6. Hey Donna, like Loretta said every one is going through the financial stuff and hopefully the crafting will lift your does mine..You are a great mom and look how handsome your son is..Hey what are the kinds of things that you collect..colors etc? and I also need your mailing address.;) have a great sunday..:)

  7. Wonderful photo!! Our youngest graduates in June! Don't worry about the moods - I get them too every couple of months, blaming it on hormones. It is pretty frustrating while it's happening though.

  8. Oh Donna,
    You are not alone in your feelings and situation. I know your a good Mom and you've had to do the job of two. Teenagers are difficult even the best ones. Your son looks handsome and I bet he had fun at prom. My daughter Katie just turned 20 and we are finally starting to move out of the bickering stage. And the financial problems, boy can I relate. A lot of us are struggling with that as well. Hang in there, maybe next week will be a happier one.
    Hugs, Cindy

  9. Keep telling yourself, this too shall pass.... Sometimes life just sucks.... and tomorrow everyone will be happy again. Hugs till then.


  10. I am so sorry for all your troubles...I will keep you in my prayers.

  11. Be easy on yourself. You're not a horrible Mom... just a stressed out Mom. It happens to all of us!
    These past few years have been really hard for lots of us. I refuse to let money be a reason for hubby and I to fight. All you can do is make the best of what you have and wait for brighter times.
    As for your son, well I'm sure fighting took more of a toll on you than it did your son and he still probably had a wonderful time.
    Hope your days get brighter soon!

  12. Lotsa hugs and prayers...many of us are in the same boat! Hang in there you have said...this too shall pass!

  13. Hi, Donna. This is my first time visiting your blog. When I read your post it sounded like I wrote it! Misery loves company, so I will tell you that I, too, have no desire or energy to do my Spring cleaning on my mess of a house (that's why my blog is so lame!) and my finances are also in the toilet AND I have gone through what you are going through with my son (I have always been a single mother, by the way). AND: You are NOT a terrible mom - you are a good mom. And don't ever say you maybe shouldn't have had an opportunity to be a mom, because that will make your son feel bad. Believe it or not, my son (now 19 years old) also had a car accident when he was a teenager a couple of years ago, and when he graduated from HS last June, he and I had a fight the night before graduation, then AGAIN on the day of graduation! Do you feel better now? So you see, you are not alone. And my son and I get along great now - it is just your son's age. Trust me, things DO get better and back to normal. If you ever need to talk, just email me! Take care and keep the faith!
    Best regards,

  14. I totally DO understand..You are not a bad Mom..It is hard raising teenagers and I'm sure your son forgot all about the arguement when he got to the Prom..Little kids...Little Problems...Big kids ..Big Problems..It will pass..I raised 8 sons and there is always one that I am arguing with even though they are all on their own now. Kids can be hurtful at times..Your Son looks really nice and looks happy.
    I know it is hard but you need to take some time for yourself if even for just 1 day and try and think of what you will be doing next year when things are all better..They will be better if you really believe they will be.
    Take care of YOU first...will make the rest easier :)

  15. Donna my heart hurts for you. I think we have all felt like you are feeling now atleast once in our lifetime. They say when it rains it pours. This is just the devil at work trying his best to destroy you. Don't give him the satisfaction. I will say a prayer for you. The Lord knows what you are in need of right now and I know the answer is on its way.
    Warm Hugs,

  16. Donna I am sorry to hear about the tough times you are having but girl you are not alone!!! You sound just like me! I have been in this funk for well over a month & I can't seem to get out of it...not sure if it's the weather or just the fact that I'm getting older! Your life sounds just like mine...especially in regards to your son. I had the exact same experience with my oldest...he's never seen or talked to his biological father (I call him the sperm donor because he never has or ever will be his Moms & kids just argue so don't think that you're a terrible fact there isn't a morning that goes by in my house that someones not yelling at the other! So don't feel singled out because you're not the only one I promise! I will say a prayer for you & hope that things get better soon!
    Lots of hugs!!!

  17. So sorry you are dealing with all this.. with life the way it is. Yes, you are right.. this too shall pass but in the mean time you have to deal with it and climb out of it. We all have our struggles. Some days are good, some not so good. I'm glad you have your blog to put those feelings out there and off your chest. That's what I love about my blogging friends. We are here for each other to lift each other up, be beside them. We are here to encourage, love, and support. I hope your week gets better. Lean on God and bask in His great love for you! I will pray for you this week!

  18. Donna, Yes.. this too shall pass, I know easier said than done. Praying for ya, remember there's always a silver lining, just around the corner.

  19. Donna~

    Don't get down on yourself! You are a wonderful mother! Your son knows he can depend on you. You love each other unconditionally. That is why you guys can fight sometimes. You both know you will love each other after the fight is over.

    You are a very creative, caring, and generous person! I hope that things getting better for you really soon. Never forget how important you are to so many people!