Hi all. It's been a while since I've posted. Life has just kicked my butt these past few weeks. I have not felt the least bit creative, work is driving me crazy, my house is a mess and I have absolutely no energy or desire to clean it, our finances are in the toilet right now, and I'm extremely grouchy, sad, overwhelmed, and fighting with the hubby and the kid and whoever else dares to speak to me! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????? Does anyone else ever feel like this or am I really just going insane? I surely hope this feeling doesn't linger. I don't like it!
The kid went to his first prom last night. Since his accident in March, he hasn't been able to drive since we only have one vehicle that he could drive and I can't afford to put him on the insurance. So I was driving him to his date's house where they were going to be picked up by some of their friends, and we got into a huge argument. My heart is broken because I feel like I ruined his special night by fighting with him. I didn't even get to take any pics of him with his date due to the fighting. What the heck is wrong with me?? I feel like the world's worst mom. Sometimes I think I should have never had the opportunity to be a mom because I have not done a very good job so far at it. Bless his heart, his deadbeat dad left me when I was pregnant with him and has never been a part of his life, has never once in 17 years sent a birthday card, Christmas gift, or even called him just to talk. He's only seen his dad one time in his life and he was only a month old then so, of course, he doesn't remember anything about him. So between not having a dad and having a screwed up mom, it's a wonder he's turned out as good as he has. I did take a couple of pics of him here at the house before we starting fighting. Here's my favorite:
The hubby and I are fussing over some financial issues right now and that is driving me crazy too. Sometimes I just get so tired of struggling with everything! Oh well, it is what it is and I guess this too shall pass.
Well, that's it for now. I'm sorry to be such a downer but sometimes you just gotta get stuff off your chest. I'm going to try to do a little crafting today if I can force myself to get up off this couch! Maybe it will help me feel better.
Until next time. . .